heaven / marcoh

[midway]

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[boxcar]

Did I?

[midway]

[ He did not I just forgot what was happening in this thread.

ANYWAY, ]

... I don't know why I said that.

[ ANYWAY 2 ]

Would you tell me who? Someone from back home?

[boxcar]

I'm sorry for... defying expectations?

[ He's just like '???' ]

[midway]

No! It's not that. I think you're very dateable.

[ Awkward. ]

[boxcar]

[ There's like, a weird small wave of something that feels almost like melancholy? But it's brief and he shapes up quickly enough, crossing his arms. ]

Don't actually hear that often. Things really are different in heaven.

[midway]

Well, you know. There's more time to think about these when we don't have food and shelter to worry about.

[ Smiling a little, though there's a bit of concern at the melancholy.

In any case, he'll sit down on a cushion. ]

Regardless, if it's something that brings you joy, then I'm happy for you, truly.

[boxcar]

No, it's...

[ He looks over to Claude with furrowed brows, clearly trying to weigh something mentally. Figure out how to say it and how much. ]

The people around me weren't much for that kind of talk... gossip. That's all.

[midway]

[ Lifting his brows. ]

Are you admonishing me?

[boxcar]

No, not that either.

[midway]

But you haven't asked me the question in return...?

[boxcar]

About if you're dating someone?

[ Why do you want him to ask this. ]

Are you?

[midway]

[ marcoh isn't interested in him........... ]

Now it kind of feels pathetic to say I'm not.

[boxcar]

It's not pathetic. You seem likeable.

[ You can score, despite Spoon's best efforts. ]

[midway]

[ Embarrassed. ]

It's alright. I'd rather not be in a relationship. [ Anyway, ] How long have you been dating?

[boxcar]

Politics?

[ Is that why. ]

Not long.

[midway]

That's right, I have my hands full with managing the conflict, and it's not exactly a simple thing to get involved with a political leader.

But I'm still young. There's plenty of time for that later. [ ... ] Well, unless I die again. But there's no accounting for that.

[boxcar]

If the afterlife is like this, then there is still room for pursuit even then?

[ Not trying to take pity though, he kinda means that. ]

[midway]

[ feel free to drop this!!

That makes Claude laugh. ]

Having to go through the awkwardness of courtship in the afterlife...? [ Amused. ] Well, I guess miracles might actually happen in real heaven. It wouldn't be that bad to have a partner after everything's said and done.

[boxcar]

[ Tch, I guess you get dead person rights where I do tag it for at least a few more days... ]

I think if it is something you want, then everyone deserves to love and feel loved.

[midway]

[ me immediately losing this notification after you kindly tagged me back

Anyway, that's so deeply sincere that he doesn't really know what to do with it. ]

Everyone, huh? Even murderous jerks and war criminals?

[boxcar]

[ Spoon doesn't love me :( ]

Is that the only way you see yourself?

...

I told you before, that I'd killed a man too.

[ Know that when you say I don't deserve love because I've done murder you're saying it to this man......... ]

[midway]

[ stop clutches this thread in my hands

He thinks for a moment. ]

No, I don't think I'm just that. I don't think anyone deserves to be defined only by the worst parts of themselves.

[ Looking at him. ]

But I can't really imagine ever getting that close with anyone. [ ... ] But I'm still young. There's lots of time before marriage.

[boxcar]

I'm thirty-one.

...

I'd thought it'd be impossible too. There are, other reasons, where I am from. I kind of accepted that it couldn't happen.

[ Never say impossible... ]

[midway]

[ Hehe. Nudges him. ]

Look at you now. [ He looks curious. ] What's the upside of being in a relationship anyway?

[boxcar]

Having someone you love and loves you back.

[ He's a traditional romantic if you let him be one... ]