heaven / marcoh

[midway]

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[boxcar]

No, not that either.

[midway]

But you haven't asked me the question in return...?

[boxcar]

About if you're dating someone?

[ Why do you want him to ask this. ]

Are you?

[midway]

[ marcoh isn't interested in him........... ]

Now it kind of feels pathetic to say I'm not.

[boxcar]

It's not pathetic. You seem likeable.

[ You can score, despite Spoon's best efforts. ]

[midway]

[ Embarrassed. ]

It's alright. I'd rather not be in a relationship. [ Anyway, ] How long have you been dating?

[boxcar]

Politics?

[ Is that why. ]

Not long.

[midway]

That's right, I have my hands full with managing the conflict, and it's not exactly a simple thing to get involved with a political leader.

But I'm still young. There's plenty of time for that later. [ ... ] Well, unless I die again. But there's no accounting for that.

[boxcar]

If the afterlife is like this, then there is still room for pursuit even then?

[ Not trying to take pity though, he kinda means that. ]

[midway]

[ feel free to drop this!!

That makes Claude laugh. ]

Having to go through the awkwardness of courtship in the afterlife...? [ Amused. ] Well, I guess miracles might actually happen in real heaven. It wouldn't be that bad to have a partner after everything's said and done.

[boxcar]

[ Tch, I guess you get dead person rights where I do tag it for at least a few more days... ]

I think if it is something you want, then everyone deserves to love and feel loved.

[midway]

[ me immediately losing this notification after you kindly tagged me back

Anyway, that's so deeply sincere that he doesn't really know what to do with it. ]

Everyone, huh? Even murderous jerks and war criminals?

[boxcar]

[ Spoon doesn't love me :( ]

Is that the only way you see yourself?

...

I told you before, that I'd killed a man too.

[ Know that when you say I don't deserve love because I've done murder you're saying it to this man......... ]

[midway]

[ stop clutches this thread in my hands

He thinks for a moment. ]

No, I don't think I'm just that. I don't think anyone deserves to be defined only by the worst parts of themselves.

[ Looking at him. ]

But I can't really imagine ever getting that close with anyone. [ ... ] But I'm still young. There's lots of time before marriage.

[boxcar]

I'm thirty-one.

...

I'd thought it'd be impossible too. There are, other reasons, where I am from. I kind of accepted that it couldn't happen.

[ Never say impossible... ]

[midway]

[ Hehe. Nudges him. ]

Look at you now. [ He looks curious. ] What's the upside of being in a relationship anyway?

[boxcar]

Having someone you love and loves you back.

[ He's a traditional romantic if you let him be one... ]

[midway]

Isn't it a lot of work? What if they leave you?

[ Marcoh... Thank you for relationship advice there is no one else to ask. ]

[boxcar]

Not every relationship will work out. It's just how it is. But that doesn't mean you shouldn't try, if you want for it.

[midway]

How do you decide if the benefits outweigh the costs?

[ what's the cost-benefit analysis? ]

[boxcar]

If they are hurting you, then you should not stay with them.

[ This really is like. Basic stuff. HE DOESN'T SAY IT LIKE IT IS but like on an OOC note. This really is common sense. ]

[midway]

[ Look. ]

I guess I don't understand because I've never liked anyone that much.

[boxcar]

It can hit you when you aren't expect it. You cannot really predict these things.

[midway]

Yeah? How'd it happen for you?

[boxcar]

It wasn't the smoothest.

[ Thinks about it... ]

If I had to say anything in particular about it, be honest with how you feel.