a long pause, as he grapples with this. it's funny, almost, in a terrible way, because this is how it must feel from the other side. the grief someone feels after losing someone who promised to support you in battle, who advised you and took care of you, in so many ways.
silence, for a moment, and then he reaches and rests a hand on claude's arm. ]
It is. [ His heart still breaks to this knowing that he won't see her again. That because of him... ] But... the timing seems kind of pointed [ almost like some ooc hand orchestrated this ] but I don't want you to feel guilty or anything about your general mourning you.
It's a leader's job to bear the loss of their fallen soldiers.
It's... important to see, I think. [ he says at length. ] To know how badly it hurts a leader when their soldiers are lost to them.
It's a reminder that even leaders grieve. [ ... ] I know that I am the worst person to suggest this, but I hope you allow yourself to feel her loss. She seemed important to you.
I suppose I can't say much about that without sounding like a hypocrite. [ ... ] There isn't a right way to do it, other than letting yourself feel it.
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a long pause, as he grapples with this. it's funny, almost, in a terrible way, because this is how it must feel from the other side. the grief someone feels after losing someone who promised to support you in battle, who advised you and took care of you, in so many ways.
silence, for a moment, and then he reaches and rests a hand on claude's arm. ]
... I'm sorry. That is a heavy loss to bear.
[ before anything. ]
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It is. [ His heart still breaks to this knowing that he won't see her again. That because of him... ] But... the timing seems kind of pointed [ almost like some ooc hand orchestrated this ] but I don't want you to feel guilty or anything about your general mourning you.
It's a leader's job to bear the loss of their fallen soldiers.
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It's... important to see, I think. [ he says at length. ] To know how badly it hurts a leader when their soldiers are lost to them.
It's a reminder that even leaders grieve. [ ... ] I know that I am the worst person to suggest this, but I hope you allow yourself to feel her loss. She seemed important to you.
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[ Actually, are they? Hm.
At the suggestion, he just shakes his head, ] I don't know. I don't know if I actually know how to grieve someone.
[ There hadn't been time. And there's hardly any time here, either. ]
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jiaoqiu watches him for a moment. ]
I suppose I can't say much about that without sounding like a hypocrite. [ ... ] There isn't a right way to do it, other than letting yourself feel it.
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[ Turning it around. ]
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... No, but I did not advertise myself as a role model.
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[ ~ nihility ~ ]
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Think of it as becoming more and more immune to spice. It takes more of it to slow me down.
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[ like building up an immunity to feeling, only he just shuts down if he feels too much. wow this is just scien, what a terrifying realization ]