heaven / anders

[midway]

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[midway]

[ help

love arrows claude to him immediately... take me out ]

That's one way of looking at it. [ He's still frowning. ] Are you still trying to return back after all this?

[spiritbalm]

You mean like ... alive?

[ no claude probably does not mean just ALIVE. ]

[midway]

[ WELL... DOESN'T HE ]

I mean back to your home. To the war.

[spiritbalm]

I'd still ... want to do what I can. For the mages.

[ though they may or may not want him there. opinions are deeply divided all the way from "anders is monster of the highest caliber" to "anders is andraste herself reborn." either way, it's ... a lot. and probably difficult for a mage rebellion to balance. ]

If I wanted to stay dead, there are a thousand other times in my life I could have made that choice.

[midway]

So you live for the cause.

[ As a soldier. ]

I can't say I don't understand it. What about when it's done?

[spiritbalm]

I am the cause.

[ and it's a difficult question to answer. when it's done. ]

Are we assuming that we will be victorious? That's probably a bit optimistic, but, alright. If we win, if the Circles are torn down and mages can live free, then I think I'd want the same as anyone else. To live a normal life.

[midway]

[ Okay, back up. ]

What do you mean you are the cause? Like... you're fighting for your own liberation?

[spiritbalm]

I mean that I have accepted becoming an Abomination in exchange for the ability to fight for all of us.

[ a half-shrug. ]

Whatever comes next, I don't know that normal is possible for me anymore. I am the Host of the spirit of Justice.

[midway]

[ Oh. He just thought Justice was a fun nickname that they had given Anders. ]

And that's going to consume you eventually?

[spiritbalm]

[ surprise!!!!!!!! ]

Neither of us are who we used to be. I think perhaps we will only become more as one as time goes on, but I don't know what that means, or what shape it will take. I am not quite human, nor quite Spirit.